Meet Suze, the big, loveable demon guardian from Emi Gayle’s, DAY AFTER


Today, I have a very interesting guest with me.  It wasn’t easy getting this interview as he really doesn’t like to draw attention to himself (not).  Normally, I interview my victims guests in a public arena, but this particular interviewee asked I come to his place.  Want to know where that is?

Would you believe me if I told you a crypt?

Yep, I arrived a bit ago in the still blackness of night and was greeted outside the mausoleum by two goblin-like creatures.  They escorted me inside and down the grey steps to a room that could have come right out of an Austin Powers movie.  In the center of the room, perched on a Texas-sized blood-red beanbag chair, sits my host: a seven-foot, creature with green ears, and horns that stick out of his over-sized, orange-brown head.  He motions to me with his funky claw-hand thingy to take a seat on a large couch.  I do as he says because quite frankly, the dude is scary, even if he is wearing nothing more than a red and blue striped bathrobe that barely covers his behind.

I reach into my bag and pull out my pad and pen when, to my surprise, two teens stroll into the room.  I know right away who they are:  Mac and Winn.  Perfect.  All my pre-thought interview questions just got tossed out the window…well, not really since there isn’t a window, but if there was…

Oh, never mind.  I clear my throat. “Emm, thank you for granting me the opportunity to meet with you Suze.”

Winn and Mac sit next to me on the couch, one on each side.  My insides rattle like  a leaf on a tree but I keep my cool.  Suze simply nods and puts on a baseball cap backwards.

I can’t help but smile.  He looks ridiculous but I’m not going to say anything.

“So Suze, what’s your 411?  What’s your ish with Winn?”  I glance at the handsome guy to my right.  If I was his age, I’d be interested.  Just saying.

Suze makes some sort of noise that reminds me of a horse snort.  It’s enough to get my attention. “411?” he says.  ”Whaszat?”  He scratches his head.  ”Is that the number you call for emergencies? Does that mean you’re going to call me for emergencies? Me? Ooh!”  His eyes go wide.  ”Can I be a paramedic and save people?”

“Um,” I chuckle and shake my head.  ”I don’t think so.”

“So why’d you ask if I wanted to be one?”

“I didn’t ask.  I wanted to know what your relationship is with Winn.  I mean, are you guys best buds? Have you been friends long?”

“Buds? Well … if I had to pick any flower, I’d call him a rose because a rose of any other name would smell as sweet.”

I’m pretty sure I have a blank stare on my face.  Just keep going, Jenny.

“Let’s try a different question.  What’ is like being  a demon?”

“Demon!  Who’s a demon?  You?”

I laugh and point to myself.  ”Me?  Oh, no, I’m not a demon, but I have it on good authority you are. Emi said so.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. So, what kind of demon are you?”

“Me? I’m Abbaddon.”

“Ah, a destroyer.  Sweet.”  My stomach just tied itself into a knot.  ”Don’t get to see many of you around these parts.”

He shifts positions. “Parts is parts.”

I look away while he adjusts his robe.  ”Yes, well, let’s talk about something else shall we.  What do you like to eat?  Being a demon you must like meat.  Do you care for fish?  Do you like your food raw and wriggly like Gollum.  Maybe with lots of garlic?

“Gollum? Oh, I don’t know about that. He’s scary. Ewww.”  Suze shivers.  I wonder if Gollum would be impressed.  ”Vampires don’t like garlic, did you know that?” Suze says.  ”They are the hardest to eat and give me heartburn.”  He rubs his chest up the middle.

Ah yes. Vampires.  I was wondering when we’d get to that.  It’s always about the vampires.  Time to change tactics again.  ”So Suze, tell me about your pad, your crib, your crypt.”

A smile gleams across his basketball head.  ”It’s soft. And I can … I can …”  He motions me forward and leans in.  ”I can change up my whole crib with a snap of my finger. I have fun gettin’ it ready for Mac. She never knows what to expect. Like … what would you like it to be like? I can make it like that! But none of that modern art stuff.”

“Hmm, how about a cabin in the woods.”

Snap and voila folks.  I’ll be doggone if I’m not in a freaking cabin in the woods.  Not too bad.  Not to bad at all.  I sit back and get a little more comfy.

“What’s your favorite article of *clears throat* clothing?”

Suze taps his temple. The finger moves to his nose. To his chin and to his cheek.  ”My Superman Underoos. Mac said they aren’t in fashion, but they’re comfy, so I like ‘em.”

TMI, Suze.  TMI.  Change direction again.  I look to my left at Mac who’s eyeing me with great interest. I don’t like it.  ”So, Suze, you’re Mac’s protector.  How’d that happen?”

“I dunno exactly. Someone told me I was, and then Winn told me I was, and then I just was.”

“Hmm, interesting. How about you give my readers the scoop about what you and all your fantasy friends are all about.”

“Scoop? I like chocolate. And vanilla. And Mint. And chocolate. Did I say chocolate? Yeah, chocolate and mint. Mac likes chocolate too. Did you know Winn gave her a chocolate diamond and she didn’t even eat it?”

“Suze, can you try to focus for  a minute, please?  Who and what are all of you and why is Mac so important to you?”

He frowns and crosses his arms over his chest.  ”Mac’s important ‘cause she’s Mac, but I’m not supposed to say why ‘cause she doesn’t want everyone to know.”

“Okay.  I can see that subject is off-limits.  Who’s your girlfriend?”

“She’s a Dhamphyr. She’s like a vampire-human-combo person and she’s gorgeous. I really like her. Do you think she likes me?”

“I have no idea.  I’ve never met her.  Do you floss?”

“Floss?”

“Yeah, you know, string between the teeth thing after you eat?”  He looks confused.  ”Oh never mind. “What do you hate most about your ‘job’ as a guardian demon?  Like most?”

“My job? Well, I get to read a lot. My favorite book is the thesaurus and did you know there’s like a different word for every word in the dictionary in there!”

“You don’t say.”  I close my notepad as I can see this interview is going nowhere fast.  As I put my pen and pad away, I ask, “Is there anything interesting about yourself you want to tell us before I let you get back to your protecting and guarding?

“He flashes a big smile.  ”I’m absorbing, charismatic, curious, delightful, magnetic, pleasing, striking, suspicious— you get me, right? I’m interesting!”

Yeah, I got you buddy.  I stand and grab my things.  ”Thank you for taking time to talk to me, Suze.  It’s been…different.  Keep up the good work.”  I stop Winn and Mac with my hand.  ”Please.  No need to get up. I can see my way out.”

I exit the mausoleum with laughter at my heels.  That’s okay.  I just exposed Suze to the world.  I wonder if he realizes the true scope of that.  Maybe it’s best for me if he never does.  He is, after all, an Abbaddon.

***

Day After

Release Date: May 6, 2013

Target Reader: Young Adult

Blurb

Demon crypts. Vampire lairs. Glowing angels. Sexy sirens. The stuff of fiction.

Or so Winn Thomas always thought.

Since being accepted into the fold of the supernatural, he knows better. None of what he imagined is true, but everything he feared is, and binding himself to his Changeling girlfriend until her nineteenth birthday will give him an education far beyond what he’d get at his human high school.

Luckily, Winn’s not giving up, he won’t back down, and he definitely isn’t going to run away with his tail between his legs. After all, only werewolves have tails. Right?

In this, the second of the 19th Year trilogy, Winn’s facing the challenge of one lifetime. If he doesn’t learn the truth about mythological creatures, his girlfriend Mac Thorne won’t either. That means, in six months, when she chooses her final form, she won’t know what to pick.

Winn, though, has his own ideas about Mac’s final selection—plans she knows nothing of.

He intends to have her pick human.

Whether she can or not.

Read an excerpt here

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Emi Gayle just wants to be young again. She lives vicariously through her youthful characters, while simultaneously acting as chief-Mom to her teenaged son and searching for a way to keep her two daughters from ever reaching the dreaded teen years.

Ironically, those years were some of Emi’s favorite times. She met the man of her dreams at 14, was engaged to him at 19, married him at 20 and she’s still in love with him to this day. She’ll never forget what it was like to fall in love at such a young age — emotions she wants everyone to feel.

Want to try to win a copy of After Dark and Day After?  All you have to do is go here and enter.  Good Luck!

New Treatment for Breast Cancer – Is removing them before getting the disease the answer?


Ok, some of you may be wondering why I am writing about this subject instead of something to do with writing. Well, in a way, it can be applied to writing as characters, living or fictional, have to make life-altering decisions every day.  Their decisions affect the outcome of the story.  This happens to be a real story, but one that I’m left struggling with.

Ever since Angelina Jolie came out with the news she’s had a double mastectomy in order to avoid getting breast cancer, I’ve been going through an internal debate:  would or should I do the same?  After much soul-searching, I have to say the answer is no.  Maybe it was the right decision for her and other women who have had it done, but to me, it doesn’t make sense.  

Cancer is ruthless.  It targets everyone, including those who exercise and eat right and do all the things we’re supposed to do to stay healthy.  It affects the old and the young, male, female, obese and skinny.  It is the dreaded word none of us want to hear come out of our doctor’s mouths.  I get the fear.  I get the need for wanting to prevent instead of treat, but I think this has gone a bit far.

Should we remove our colons because there is a string of colon cancer in the family?  Should we all have our teeth removed because several members of our family had oral cancer?  Should men have their jewels and then some removed to avoid penile cancer simply because a gene they carry predisposes them to the disease?   Should we remove our skin so we don’t get skin cancer?  I have to wonder what sort of message this put off to young girls.   Is this going to start a mass movement of women demanding breast removal and reconstruction because they might get the disease?  

How about we not drive a car because we might die in an accident.  Let’s not ride a roller coaster because it may fly off the track.  Let’s not fly in a plane because it might crash.  In fact, let’s all overdose and die peacefully because we might die a horrible death tomorrow.    Why are we living in so much fear over what might happen?  Every day is full of mights.  Do we become paranoid and avoid the scenarios that might bring one of those ‘mights’ to fruition?  Are we so afraid of the diseases we might get that we are willing to trade in our human body parts for artificial ones, because that’s where I see us heading.  All based on a might.

I’m all for preventative meds and treatments.  Trust me, I don’t want to get cancer anymore than the next person.  This, however, to me, is too radical.  Treatment for breast cancer, as well as other cancers, has come a long way.  Granted it’s expensive to treat and there are no guarantees, but there are no guarantees in life.  Even for women who have this done, there are no guarantees she won’t get ovarian or uterine cancer, stomach cancer, colon, liver, pancreas cancer.  May the new radical mastectomy reduce your odds for getting breast cancer?  According to science, yes.  That  doesn’t mean it’s not going to happen.

I see this becoming the next wave of cosmetic surgery, and the reconstructive surgeons are lining up.  I hope I’m wrong.  As for me…these puppies are staying where they are until there is a reason to set them free.  Life is too short to be freaking out over mights.  Whatever your decision, consider wisely, don’t jump into your decision and remember…you will have to live with your decision for the rest of your life.  Don’t do something because everyone else is doing it or because it’s the new fashion trend (look at the women who have been damaged by bad Botox injections).  You are unique and you are beautiful.  Make sure the decisions you make are for you and not because a celebrity made it ‘fashionable’.

Final Note:  I do not judge Angelina’s decision.  I think her choice was a brave and selfless one as well as a very personal one.  She, however brought it to the public’s eye, and I really ‘worry’ about the followers simply because Angelina did it.

Mother Nature is on a Rampage


Mother Nature is on a rampage, and there’s not a damn thing we can do about it.

Last week, an EF-4 tornado ripped through Granbury, Texas.  6 people alone died in Granbury.  Many, many more were injured.  As many as 10 tornadoes may have touched down in a 24-hour period, one of them reported to be a mile wide.  A mile wide.  The concept of a tornado being a mile wide blows my mind.

I witnessed a tornado once when I lived in Kansas.  I was 8 years old.  We lived in a duplex – military housing.  My backyard was a huge field maybe the length of 3 football fields.  My elementary school stood like a goal post at the other end.  I remember my mom shoving me and my brother into a concrete pantry off the kitchen when we first heard the ‘train’.  There was a small slit of a window at the very top of the room.  Against my  mom’s tugging, pulling, anger, I managed to stand on the shelving and watch the little tornado smack into the elementary school, hurl crap in the air like it was nothing, and then turn towards us.  I couldn’t move.  This finger spun toward our home faster than anything I could even imagine…and then it jumped.  Sucked right up in the sky.  Touched down somewhere behind us, maybe a mile or more away.  I’ll never forget it.  I’ll never forget the color of the sky, the stillness, the eerie feeling on my body.  I have since realized what I witnessed as a child was an EF-1.  A baby tornado.  I can’t imagine seeing something like the tornado that hit Granbury last week or Oklahoma yesterday.

50+ people are dead, 20 of them children from an EF-4 tornado that was estimated to be 2 1/2 miles wide at the base with winds of 200 mph.  The death toll will probably rise.  I can’t imagine being one of those parents waiting to hear if my child was one of those that lived or perished.  As a parent, I can’t even comprehend losing one of my kids.  I hope I never have to.

Such young, innocent lives snuffed from this world in the matter of seconds.  Not from a madman.  Not from a gun or a bomb, but from nature.  I’m sure the  visible pain, the devastation, cannot even begin to rival the pain those parents are feeling at losing their children.  Yesterday morning, parents packed lunch boxes, hugged and kissed their children and sent them off to a place that is thought of safe.  Dozens of parents will never see their children again, hear their laughter, see their smiles, have an argument over cleaning a bedroom, or battle with them to eat their peas.

I am reminded in times like these to stop taking my life so seriously.  Hug my kids more.  Call them on the phone and tell them how much I love them.  The chance may never come again, we just never know.

One thing is certain:  Mother Nature isn’t going anywhere.  It’s that time of year, and she makes no differentiation between age, race, religion, color, rich or poor.  We are all equal in her eyes.  I live in a state where I have to keep a close eye on her between June 1 and November 31.  Anticipation builds closer to hurricane season and Floridians let out a huge sigh of relief when the season ends.  For 6 months we pray for these storms to remain nothing more than fish storms.  If they do come ashore, we pray they are minimal.  It’s humbling to know I’m  at Nature’s mercy, and it’s only by the grace of God I’m still here.

My thoughts and prayers to all the victims of the devastating tornadoes of the past 2 weeks and the weeks to come. My heart cries with you in your loss, and if my arms were big enough, I’d embrace all of you.  To everyone else, tell those you love how much you care for them.  Give them an extra hug, another kiss.  Don’t leave any room for regret.  Life is too precious, especially when Mother Nature is on a rampage.

Star Trek at its absolute best!


What is there NOT to like about the new Star Trek movie?  There are explosions, the acting is fantastic, the traditional bantering between Bones and Spock is perfection…there’s even a tribble involved.  Come on, who doesn’t like tribbles?

Chris Pine as Kirk and Zachery Quinto’s (Heroes fame) performance as Spock are stellar.  In fact, the whole cast is on fire.  Karl Urban, who plays Bones, reminds me so much of a young DeForest Kelley who played the original Bones in the t.v. series and earlier movies.  Major kudos to the casting director.

This movie explains how Kirk comes in contact with certain people.  I won’t say who because that will give some of the plot away and I’d have to put up a spoiler alert.  I will say they are very important in Kirk’s life and answers to questions I’ve had over the years were revealed.

As to the special effect team?  Whoo Hoo!!  The graphics were stupendous.  Explosions phenomenal.  From the moment the movie begins, so does the action, and it never lets up.

There are some plot issues (I wish there had been more explanation to the opening scene of the movie), but the scenes move so fast you don’t really notice the plot stuff  until the movie is over.  That’s a good thing.  There is also nothing really ‘dark’ about this film so I’m not sure where the title fits in, but I’m willing to overlook that because it’s such an unrelenting roller coaster of the good kind.

What exactly is Star Trek, Into Darkness about?  From IMDb:

After the crew of the Enterprise find an unstoppable force of terror from within their own organization, Captain Kirk leads a manhunt to a war-zone world to capture a one man weapon of mass destruction.

My final assessment:  Star Trek Into Darkness is steeped in action, humor, a strong story, and brilliant visuals.  It will definitely please traditional Trekkies and new fans alike.  It’ll also make you want to go back and watch a particular Star Trek film from the early ’80s, which happens to be one of my favorite movies of all time.

Happy trekking!  Live long and prosper.  

Phillies 1st Baseman, Ryan Howard, will soon by my Florida neighbor!


I love baseball.  That doesn’t mean I can rattle off stats.  I simply love the game.  I also love palatial homes, and when I see one going up a few miles from my home, I sit up and take notice.

For those of you that don’t know, I live minutes away from the Gulf of Mexico.  My playground includes world-famous Clearwater Beach and Sand Key Park.  In a nutshell, I live in paradise.

sand key beach-001

Soon, Phillies 1st baseman, Ryan Howard, will live here, too.

I take the Belleair Causeway from the peninsula to Gulf Blvd (the main beach Road that travels from Clearwater Beach, to the world-famous, Don CeSar, in St. Petersburg.)  On the way to Sand Key, there are multiple mansions lining the beachside of Gulf Blvd, and I’ve seen a few of these puppies go up over the years.  Each time I’m in awe of their size, beauty and architecture.  All of them are dwarfed in comparison to the palace that will son be Howard’s.

It all started when Ryan bought a lot for $3.3 million.  He razed the home that was there and is currently building this.  (sorry my cell phone takes such crappy pictures, but I think you can get the scope.)

house in bellair

Want an idea of what this mammoth home costs?  $23 million and this doesn’t  include the costs for furnishing the interior.  

The home, when complete, will be the largest in Belleair Shores, measuring in at a whopping 17,602 square feet.  It has said the estate will have 8 bedrooms and no less than 10 bathrooms.  There will be a two-story library (yeah baby!), and his trophies and mementos will be displayed in a 31-foot-by-23-foot trophy room.  There will be other goodies like elevators, 3 laundry rooms, a massage room, a wine room and two kitchens, not to mention a bowling alley with breakaway walls and a lazy river.  I recently heard that Duke Power will more than likely have to set a new transformer just for this property because of the amount of electricity it will use.

Insane.  And it’s the stuff dreams are made of.

I can’t believe all the articles and comments I’ve read on how this is a waste of money and that it’s too extravagant in this economy.  I say phooey on all the nay-sayers.  Being the conservative, capitalist I am, I say more power to you, Ryan Howard.  This man earned his money and he has every right to be as extravagant or tight with it as he wants.  In this case, he put tons of construction people to to work in a sluggish economy. He’s brought a huge amount of money to Belleair Shores in tax revenues alone.  There will be other vendors involved to bring this dream to fruition:  landscapers, maintenance people, housekeepers, etc.  Besides, this is his dream.  Who are we to stomp on it?

Personally, I’m glad to see him here and I will enjoy driving by this home every chance I can. To Ryan:  welcome to paradise.  Your home is beautiful.  And if there is any chance I can take a tour of that 2-story library, I’m available any time. :-)

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Gaining a publisher’s trust as a reviewer


A couple of years ago I picked up Heather Burch’s, Halflings, read it and reviewed it on my blog.  A few weeks afterwards, I received an e-mail from the publisher, Zondervan.  They liked my review and wanted to know if I would like to review more books for them.  Of course, my answer was a big YES!!!  They proceeded to send me two more books.  Sadly, I wasn’t particularly fond of either one of them, so I didn’t review them online.  I felt I wouldn’t do justice to the authors or to Zondervan.  I mean, let’s face it.  I’m still a newbie author myself.  Who am I to slam someone else’s dreams on a public forum.  If I was a professional reviewer and people waited with bated breath to know what I thought, then that would be a different story.  Right now, I’m not that person.  I’m a start-up author with a blog who likes to talk up the books I like or that I think others will enjoy.

To make a long story short, after a long hiatus, Zondervan contacted me a few days ago with a request to pick books from a list I might be interested in reading and reviewing.  There was a picture and a blurb for each one in the e-mail and they were all MG or YA reads.  I sent a message back saying I couldn’t pick just one but if I had to, I’d go for the paranormal/fantasy first.  Their response?  ”We’ll be happy to send them all.”  Really????   How crazy is that?  There are around 8 books all together AND all but one happened to be on  my TBR list.  The first four arrived Wednesday and Thursday.  Want a peak?

zondervan books May 2013

 

I’m so stoked!

I think my luck in landing my review gig with Zondervan has a lot to do with being in the right place at the right time as well as being honest in my review without being disrespectful.  The books they send and that I read are Young Adult, and Zondervan knows my blog caters to their target audience.  It’s a win-win situation all the way around.

Since my review of Halflings, I have met Heather Burch, and in February of this year, I received a signed copy of her second book in the series, Guardian.  The third and final book in the series, Avenger, is propped in that pretty little picture above.  I am thrilled to have the opportunity to read and review this series.

And all it took was one honest review of one book.

I am thrilled Zondervan chose me to periodically review their YA books.  Maybe this will lead to another job all together:  book reviewer extraordinaire.  :-)  How much fun would that be?  I mean, where else can you get copies of books for free that you want to read in exchange for a review?  To me, that sounds like pure bliss.

So for those of you who don’t think reviews drive people to your blogs?  Think again.  All it takes is the right person to get you noticed.  Zondervan Publishing has my utmost respect, and I am honored to have theirs.

 

The Riftwar Cycle comes to an end with MAGICIAN’S END


Raymond Feist is my favorite adult (vs YA) fantasy author ever.  Sure I like Robert Jordan and David Edding, G.R. R. Martin and Piers Anthony, but Feist simply rocks the literary world with his amazing story-telling and world-building.  I wait for his novels with childish enthusiasm.  I have to get my hands on them as soon as possible.  MAGICIAN’S END is bittersweet for me, as it is the final chapter to the Chaoswar Saga and the climax of Feist’s Riftwar Cycle.  It will be great to see the way this particular story wraps up, but I hate endings.  Of course, with Feist, that means there are other beginnings.  The anticipation is already growing.  :)

From the back cover:

As it began, so shall it end — in magic, mystery, and majesty… Magician’s End

Thirty years ago, Raymond E. Feist wrote his first novel, Magician, a story about an orphan boy named Pug who is thrust by a war into captivity in an alien world, only to rise from slavery to become a Master Magician.  Magician introduced readers to Midkemia and the Riftwars, an epic series of battles between Good and Evil that have scarred this remarkable realm for generations. Now, after twenty-nine books (authored and coauthored), Feist delivers the crowning achievement of his renowned bestselling career: Magician’s End, the final chapter of the Chaoswar Saga and the climax of his extraordinary Riftwar Cycle.

An uneasy quiet has settled upon Midkemia in the wake of a surprise invasion. But the land is far from peaceful. Leaderless, the Kingdom is on the brink of anarchy and civil war, unless Hal conDoin, Duke of Crydee, and his brothers can rally their allies to crown a new king. They must move quickly, for war has left the land vulnerable to an agency of horrific destruction not of this world. No one is safe, not even the Star Elves whose city deep in the Grey Tower Mountains has come under attack by an ancient darkness that seeks to extinguish every living thing in Midkemia.

Yet the bravery of determined warriors — brothers in blood and arms — is not enough to ensure the Kingdom’s preservation without the magic of the Master Sorcerer Pug. A powerful spell has trapped him, his son Magnus, and two unlikely allies in an unfamiliar realm, and they must find their separate ways home — a journey of memory and discovery that will illuminate the truth of the destiny that awaits them. But to save Midkemia — and everything he has fought for and all he cherishes — Pug will have to pay the ultimate price.

A breathtaking tale of elves and men, love and hate, ambition and sacrifice, intrigue and brotherhood, war and peace, Magician’s End brilliantly captures the essence of life and the eternal struggle for survival. It is an extraordinary ending to the magnificent saga that has made award-winning Raymond E. Feist a legend.

Available at bookstores and online book retailers everywhere.

  • Hardcover: 576 pages
  • Publisher: Harper Voyager (May 14, 2013)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 0061468436
  • ISBN-13: 978-0061468438

A Demon of the Past is Destroying the Present and I’m the Scapegoat…again.


I have four children and each of them are as different as night and day from each other.  They are unique and that’s what makes them special and beautiful.  They each have their own opinions, their own way of looking at things and trust me, these varied opinions have led to some issues between the kids.  They’ve also tested the temperaments of  the parents over the years.  What I didn’t expect was being told by my oldest she can’t rely on me or trust me.

She can’t rely and trust me because of something I said on Facebook that didn’t agree with her opinion.  The conversation then took to e-mail where she said some things that really, really tore at my heart and left me very hurt and sad.  Never once has she apologized for hurting me or for being 50/50 responsible for the conversation escalating to the level it did.

Because I disagreed with her, she ‘un-friended’ me.  Now, this wouldn’t hurt so much except that’s where I can find all the latest and greatest pictures of my precious grand-daughter.  See, she lives on the other side of the country so I don’t get to see her, and she’s not a phone person, so I don’t get to talk to her.  FB was my only lifeline to this sweet little girl.  So now, because my daughter is mad at me, I can’t ‘see’ my grand-daughter.

After a very nice e-mail asking her how her Mother’s Day went and to relay all the scoop and good news on my end, I get an e-mail addressing no other points except the FB issue in which she states she unfriended me because she can’t rely on me or trust me, and therefore can’t have me in her circle of friends.  My posts made her feel threatened, unsafe.  She needs positive influences surrounding her and I’m not one of them.  

All because I’m a conservative and I disagreed with her on an abortion matter.

I think this all stems from a very angry demon in her past that she blames me for.  In her eyes, I should have been there, I should have stopped what happened, even though I didn’t know it was going on.  Despite my efforts to ‘fix’ it once I found out, she will always view me as unreliable and untrustworthy.

Why doesn’t that logic work in reverse?

As a parent I dealt with my kids lying, sneaking, having secrets, throwing temper tantrums, bad-mouthing me, name-calling, being nasty and defiant, shedding irrational tears, going through nasty hormonal challenges, showing disrespect, putting holes in walls, screaming, shouting and much, much more.  Not one of them cared how it affected me, how they hurt me, how much they ripped my heart out.  And I’m unreliable and trustworthy?  

I’m sorry, kids, but despite all that, I’m still here.  Out of all your ‘friends’ you’ve had over the years, who is still here despite being kicked around like a dog? How many of those people did you know are still with you after passing through your emotional hell?  One, maybe two?  Oh yeah, and me.

But I’m unreliable and untrustworthy.

To my kids and all the kids of the world…I made mistakes, plenty of them.  I’m a parent, I’m not perfect.  Parents are human.  We hurt.  We break.  We’re not made of steel.  And we love you more than ourselves.  So what makes me, a caring parent, different from my child?  No matter what happens in life, I would never EVER in a million years shun my child simply because she disagreed with me on an issue.

But I didn’t have to.  My daughter did that to me all on her own.

Yes, I suspect this demon from the past is still alive and well, and he’s destroying the present.  Guess what…I’m the scapegoat, again.  But I suppose that’s what unreliable and untrustworthy moms are made for.

Too bad it hurts so freaking bad.

Sweet Blogger Award


About a week ago I was nominated for the Sweet Blogger Award from fellow blogger and talented writer, Solothefirst.  Scrumptious, isn’t it.

sweet blogger awardAs with any of these awards, there are rules to follow.  I don’t like rules, but I’ll post them anyway.

•Thank the Super Sweet Blogger that nominated you.

Thank you, Thank you, Solothefirst!  What a lovely, colorful and virtually tasty treat.  It’s soo delectable.

•Answer five Super Sweet questions.  

Ok.  I guess you talked me into it seeing they are ‘sweet’ questions.  :-)

•Include the Super Sweet Blogging award image in your blog post.

Done, and it’s so pretty!

•Nominate a baker’s dozen (13) other bloggers. (well almost)

All my blogger buddies belong in a baker’s dozen, so you all are nominated.

•Notify your nominees on their blog.

Well, sorry, that’s not happening because I’d have to leave more than 300 messages so, I’ll just hand it out to everyone who reads this with a request to ping back to my blog.

There you have it.  Grab, post, ping.   Most of all, have fun and enjoy.  Now on to the 5 super sweet questions:

1.  Cookies or Cake?

hmm, depends.  Most likely cake, especially if it’s of the cheesecake kind of cake.  I’ll learn to do tricks if you want me to for cheesecake.  

2.  Chocolate or Vanilla?

Really?  You have to ask?  Choconilla, ok.  It is the sweetest of the sweet.

3.  Favorite Sweet Treat?

Cheesecake, people.  Cheesecake.  If that’s not available, chocolate mousse.  And I did say mousse, not moose.  Too much hair on the latter.

4.  When do you crave sweet things the most?

On a hot summer day.  Strawberries and cheesecake with a side of chocolate mousse and a glass of champagne.  Yummers.

5.  Sweet Nick Name?

My hubby calls me his beach bunny.  Does that count?

Psst! Wanna know a secret?


Today I’m revealing a big, big secret I’ve been keeping for weeks.  Trust me, I’ve wanted to share it with you for so long but my publisher wouldn’t let me.  Today, however, they released me and six other authors from our bondage and said, “Go!  Tell everyone you can!  Shout it to the world, to outer space!  Give them ONE MORE DAY!”

So here it is, everyone!  The cover reveal of J. Taylor Publishing’s latest anthology, ONE MORE DAY!  And my YA short story, Dragon Flight, will appear on the pages inside.  Isn’t it pretty???  :)

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Blurb:

What if today never ends?

What if everything about life—everything anyone hoped to be, to do, to experience—

never happens?

Whether sitting in a chair, driving down the road, in surgery, jumping off a cliff or flying …

that’s where you’d be … forever.

Unless …

In One More Day, Erika Beebe, Marissa Halvorson, Kimberly Kay, J. Keller Ford, Danielle E. Shipley and Anna Simpson join L.S. Murphy to give us their twists, surprising us with answers to two big questions, all from the perspective of characters under the age of eighteen.

How do we restart time?

How do we make everything go back to normal?

The answers, in whatever the world—human, alien, medieval, fantasy or fairytale—could, maybe, happen today.

Right now.

What would you do if this happened … to you?

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Does the blurb excite you?  Anyone up for helping out with upcoming blog tours, interviews etc.?  If so, give me a shout out!  The book releases December, 2013 in ebook and paperback  (this makes me very happy!  I’ll actually be able to sign a book!!!)  There will be tons of giveaways coming up over the next few months, not just from me, but all the authors involved, so get ready to jump on the ONE MORE DAY train.  Reciprocal reviews and blog tour spots for your works may be possible as well for joining in this adventure.

In the meantime, enjoy the cover and stay tuned for more news.  If you’re into YA, you’re not going to want to miss one word about this anthology.  It’s going to be tons of fun.