Rejection spawns reflection, spawns inspiration


Rejection hurts.

For the umpteenth time in the past 4 years, I was rejected for yet another job.  The reason: I’m over-qualified.  I don’t understand what that means but there it is.  I don’t know what we’re going to do as a family.  There is no money to pay the bills, just what little my hubby brings in on disability. There is no doubt my faith is being tested, my sanity is frayed, and my heart and soul are in pain.

This may be true, dear Wesley, but we all need something to make us feel worthwhile, to feel needed and special. And like it or not, we all need money to pay the bills so we don’t end up living on the streets, which is where my family is heading if I don’t land a job soon.

To keep myself from feeling like a complete and utter failure, I did a little reflecting and thought about things that would make me happy instead of sad.  When I left the hospital the other day from seeing my mother-in-law (who I love dearly and is suffering from dementia and C-Diff), hubby and I drove around looking for things to inspire me and my writing.  There just happens to be this awesome affluent neighborhood near the hospital so we took an hour tour.

Here are some places and things that lifted my spirits and set my dreams in motion.

Hulk Hogan's house

If I’m not mistaken, the above house was once owned (or is still owned) by Hulk Hogan.

Gargoyle overlooking Willadel Drive Gargoyle overlooking Willadel Drive2

Willadel Drive is a big horse shoe drive.  There are two of these gargoyles poised at both entrances to the drive.  So cool.

an expansive home that took my breath away

Down the road a ways was this sprawling mansion that looks directly out onto the bay. I’m standing in the narrow (not for sale) lot across the street and still couldn’t get the whole picture.

pretty little Victorian homeAnd check out this sweet Victorian home.  Love, love, love.

Staircase - love the reflection of the clouds in the window

A mile or so down the road, I stumbled upon this beauty.  Look at that amazing staircase to the front door.  I think it was the reflection of the sky and the clouds in that amazing front door that inspired me the most when I took this shot.

A royal view

We then took a ride out to the beachside.  I wanted to see how baseball’s Ryan Howard’s house was coming along.  We turned down a short cul-de-sac where we spotted this beauty.  It’s for sale.  I fell in love with the upstairs balcony.  I can imagine sitting there and looking out onto the Gulf of Mexico, watching the sunset.  *sigh*

Happy Dolphins
Not too far away were these happy dolphins smiling and leaping away in a front yard.  They made my heart happy.

And then, there was Ryan Howard’s monstrous creation:

Ryan Howard's home Ryan Howard's home 2I posted about this home a year ago.  You can read it here.  I would LOVE to take a tour of this place when it’s completed. Breathtaking, huh?  And the Gulf of Mexico is just behind that house.

I am in awe. I’m inspired. I have faith that someday I will have a home as big and wonderful for all my friends and family to come stay.  I have faith someday I will have enough money that I will never have to worry about losing my home, or deciding between food or medicine.  I have faith that someday I will have enough money to take a family with nothing and put them in a home, help mom/dad or both find a job and give them and their family peace of mind.

Someday, I will be able to care for and provide for those I love. Until then, I will do my best to brush off the rejections and take time to reflect on those things that are important while striving to reach my goal.  I will continue to seek inspiration and lend it when I can.  Life is too short to be sad.

What is your inspiration?  What do you do to keep constant rejection from getting to you?

 

 

 

Preparing for a hurricane


June 1 through November 30 is Hurricane Season, and for those of us along the east coast and the Gulf of Mexico, those six months are crazy.  The storms are unpredictable at times.  They wobble, some stay true to forecast tracks. Others have minds of their own.

At the moment, Florida and the those living on the Gulf of Mexico are staring down Tropical Storm, Isaac, which some forecasters are saying has the potential of turning into a Category 2 or 3 hurricane before it makes landfall somewhere in the northern Gulf.  I’m not sure about that, but I’ve seen hurricanes do some really weird stuff and I don’t trust them.  If anyone lived on the west coast of Florida in 2005, we all know about the unpredictability of Hurricane Charley.  Tampa (my neck of the woods) was supposed to get that storm.  Instead, it made a sharp right hand turn, elevated to a Cat 4 in the snap of a finger, and slammed into the Captiva/Sanibel/Ft. Myers area, giving no one time to leave.

I don’t know what level of storm Isaac will be when it passes near the Tampa Bay area, but I do know we will be on the east side of the storm, which is the bad side.  The NHC (National Hurricane Center) has given my area sustained tropical force wind probabilities.  That, combined with the rain bands feeding on the east side can cause flooding, beach erosion, uprooted trees and possible tornadic activity.  That’s why I think it’s important that people in the area from Alabama to Florida start preparing for the possibility of being without power, water, etc. once Isaac decides to do his thing.  If you are planning on riding out the tropical storm/maybe hurricane, the following lists are items you MUST have in your possession before the storm hits.  It’s always best to be prepared than not.  As Floridians are also coming into the most active part of hurricane season, the supplies will not go to waste if you don’t use them this time around.

Remember, if you lose power and water, you are going to be miserable, hot and in a very bad mood.  Take inventory of what you already have on your shelves, and then shop.  If you live anywhere from Ft. Myers north, today is the day to get your food and other supplies.

What you’ll need:

  • 3 gallons BOTTLED water per person for at least 3 days, preferably 5
  • 1 gallon bottled water per pet per day
  • enough prescription medication to get you through 10 DAYS if you take any
  • bread
  • canned meat
  • canned chili
  • beenie weenies
  • canned soups that don’t require water
  • mustard/ketchup (no mayo unless you have some way to keep it cold or if you have handy packs from fast food restaurants)
  • canned vegetables and fruit
  • dry cereal
  • peanut butter and jelly
  • crackers and snacks
  • instant coffee or tea
  • instant creamer
  • sugar, salt, pepper
  • juice
  • fresh fruit
  • butter or margarine
  • pet food for your pets
  • bleach
  • diapers
  • baby food
  • antiseptic hand soap
  • paper towels, napkins and utensils
  • paper plates
  • plastic trash bags
  • toilet paper
  • Ziploc baggies
  • DUCK tape
  • wooden matches
  • manual can opener
  • lanterns/flashlights/non-burning candles (don’t want a fire)
  • bug spray
  • battery operated/hand crank radio
  • batteries for radios, lanterns, etc.
  • propane/charcoal/wood for grills
  • charcoal fluid for the charcoal
  • cash
  • coolers for ice and food from fridge
  • fill up bathtub with water for flushing the toilet
  • first aid kit
  • generator and gas to fill it
  • Camping equipment/stoves/etc.
  • board games, playing cards
  • real books
  • ice
  • fill up cars with gas/check oil/tire pressure, etc.

As always, stay tuned to your local forecasts and follow instructions issued by your local authorities. If you’re told to evacuate, go. It’s better to take the precaution than endanger your and your family’s lives.

I would also like to make one more heart-felt request.  If you find yourself in a bad, bad storm, whether it is a tropical storm, hurricane, whatever…do not leave your four-legged friends behind to fend for themselves.  They rely on you to take care of them.  You made that promise when you took them into your home. You would no more abandon your child to fend for itself, so don’t do it to your pets.  If you say they’re just animals, imagine yourself as a helpless child in the midst of a disaster, and your family abandoned you.  It breaks my heart thinking about it.  If you have to go to a shelter and can’t take your pets, please find a friend who will take them for you until you can come back for them.  Prepare.  Have a plan in place in case the worse happens.  Just please, don’t leave them alone.

So I guess that’s it for now.  The weather is sunny here in the Clearwater/Tampa area but it’s getting quite breezy.  I will update our status on my Facebook page.  Unfortunately, we have no money to go anywhere, so whatever Isaac does, we’ll be riding out the storm, whatever comes this way.  Everyone, keep those of us on the Gulf coast in your prayers that Isaac fizzles and becomes a fish storm.  That would be perfect.