It might have happened sooner…if I’d only moved out of my own way


After searching diligently for 2 1/2 years, I finally got a job.

It all started in June 2010 when the debt management company I worked for laid me off.  I wasn’t too worried.  After all, I had excellent references and job skills.  It wouldn’t take that long to find a job.  Man, was I wrong.  Dead wrong.

Weeks turned to months, months turned to years.  I pushed and pushed to find a job, sending out resumes to places I didn’t really want to work, but what I wanted didn’t matter.  I needed to survive.  I needed to provide for my family.

Every day that passed without a job, I fell deeper into depression.  I couldn’t even get a job at Taco Bell (I was over-qualified).  I began to question my own self worth, but more importantly, I began to question my faith in God.  Every day it seemed He threw more bad stuff on top of bad.  I felt like God’s punching bag.  Then the selfish guilt set it.  After all, there were people all over the world who had it FAR worse than I did.  How dare I complain over my situation?  But I couldn’t shake not being able to provide for my family.  I continued in a downward spiral.  Hopelessness and I became very good friends.

About a month ago I had a serious talk with God.  I told Him I was done fighting, I couldn’t do it anymore.  My life was in His hands to mold and do with it what He wished.  I no longer had the strength to continue on.  In other words, I surrendered.  The moment I did this, miraculous things happened.

People I hadn’t spoken to in ages contacted me.  Doors opened that I’d banged on for over two years with no results.  Two weeks ago I attended a recruitment fair to interview for a position open at an upcoming IT firm.  After standing in line for a half hour to interview, I find out the position had been put on hold.  Two months before, I would have left the fair in angry tears.  This time, I laughed.  It wasn’t meant to be.  Funny thing is, I felt okay with it.  On Feb. 25, a gal from WorkNet Pinellas sent information to me regarding another recruitment fair on Feb. 27th.  I have since found out she almost didn’t send it to me, but changed her mind at the last minute when “a voice inside told me to forward it to you.”  The ease and speed of which everything happened from there is mind-boggling.  I went in for an interview on the 27.  A week later, I was offered a job.  I start March 18!

Needless to say, I’m elated.  There was no struggle, no banging heads, no pleading, begging.  It simply happened.

I’m not sure if this is a job I would have picked for me, but it’s the one God chose for me, so how can I go wrong?  I can’t help but wonder how much sooner this might have happened, if I’d just moved out of my own way and let God do his thing. Then again, He kind of did do his own thing, didn’t He?  I simply needed to acknowledge it and get out of His way.  Who would have ever thunk it.  🙂

P.S.  Thank you, God!  You rock.

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35 thoughts on “It might have happened sooner…if I’d only moved out of my own way

  1. Absolutely thrilled for you, Jenny, huge congratulations and props for sticking with it and hanging in there – I know how tough that can be! I remember those days so well – (many) years ago, 3 different companies I worked for ‘restructured’ and I was back pounding the pavement each time – and like you, I had excellent work credentials and no problem landing another job … the hardest was having to give up the last job that I loved so much because of my health; but apparently, the Universe had other plans for me that included time for writing … Life can be so hard, but I feel so blessed. All the best to you; you start work the day before my birthday! 🙂 ~ Love and hugs, Julie xoxox

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  2. Letting go of our situatio0ns is the hardest… Been there… done that!… Why do we feel we have to be in such control?… I remember the moment I handed
    a situation over to God… and have seen the amazing results ever since… Good for you!… Keep your faith…
    You have seen how cruel the world can be…

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  3. Sooo happy for you. Your post reminds me of one of my favorite verses from Isaiah 35: 3-4: “Strengthen the weak hands, and make firm the feeble knees. Say to those who are of a fearful heart, Be strong, do not fear!”

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  4. You are the second blogging friend who recently landed a job after being out of work for a long time. Bravo. Let’s hope this is a sign the economy is turning around.

    What will happen with your writing and your blog?

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  5. Congrats, Jenny! I remember a dream I had with my little sister in it. She asked why God kept pushing her down. I responded “He likes to push you down to see if you can get back up”. Rare do my dreams have conversations but that one has stuck with me over the years.

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    1. I wish He’d test in other ways, but I think you may be on to something.. Thank you for keeping your faith in me the whole journey. It’s been rough. Happier days are ahead.

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  6. God is good. The closer you get to Him, the more joy and peace will be in your life. His Word will always guide you. Love you.

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  7. Jenny-
    Another up side, all that time off gave you plenty of time to write.
    I’m getting nervous about this whole job thing as I get closer to finishing my degree. I know God wants me to move away from where I am, but I’m not sure where He wants me to go next. I’m trying to trust him to open all the right doors.
    Thanks for sharing your experience. I really needed to hear it today.

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    1. All I can say is don’t try to force things to happen. When the time is right, everything will fall into place. It’s amazing and true. Believe me, you have many angels around you. All you have to do is let them guide you.

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