Someone once said “If what you’re doing isn’t working, change your approach.” That means thinking outside the box. I don’t know about the rest of you, but this is something new to me, outside of writing.
Yes, I can weave you a yarn about an elephant riding a bicycle, or a murderer who likes to wear women’s underwear while he commits his crimes, but to come up with creative ideas on how to land a job, an interview or lose weight…I gotta tell you…I come up empty.
Some of my problem (no, I should say a BIG part of my problem) is that I’m in a state of depression due to many, many reasons, and can find no motivation. My life for the last year has been difficult to say the least. No matter how I keep telling myself that others have it worse than me, this is just a down time and things will turn around, it is so difficult to believe it when the depression has a hold of my brain. I find it hard to focus on anything and finding positive aspects in life are getting fewer and farther in between. Thank God I have my writing, my kids and my dogs to keep me going.
But putting the depression aside, I’m also overweight. My doc says I have 35% BMI!! Okay, I knew I was chunky but 35% BMI? I about hit the floor. This news, coupled with the fact I’m a Type 2 Diabetic is nothing more than a heart attack waiting to happen. Something has to change, and the change has to start with me.
So, I’m starting Suzanne Sommer’s program today (haven’t tried that one before), and I’m going to start walking more. And not just any walking like what I’ve been doing, but power walking – one minute brisk walking, one minute power walking like I’m about to miss the bus. It’s the least I can do since I can’t afford a gym and my knees won’t allow running.
I figure, what have I got to lose but pounds and depression. Great motivational factors for me. And maybe while I’m shedding some of these nasty critters lingering in my head and around my body, maybe my life will turn in a more positive direction. Maybe I’ll land that job I desperately need so I can provide for my family and not lose my home. Maybe I can finish the edits on my book and turn it back into the publisher. Maybe…maybe I’ll find happiness again…and getting out of bed everyday won’t be such a chore.
I took the first step today to get out of the rut…to change my life. I stepped outside the box. There are no more excuses. I put it out there to the universe. Now it’s not just me watching. The world is waiting for me. All I have to do is stay the course and hold on tight to my dream.